
I felt a rotting albatross around my neck was hung
The barrel of my .38 was pungent on my tongue
A deadly glass of poison was lifted to my lips
The suicide solution was at my fingertips
But then I realized in the pit of my despair
That suicide is pointless if there’s no one who would care
I found myself decided on a plan so cold and cruel
I grabbed my automatic and I strolled into the school
And all the while thinking that the world would surely heed
The pain that they’d inflicted to make me do this deed
And when the blood-bath ended it was time to end it all
And so I blew my brains out on the high school classroom wall
And now just like the albatross I’m rotting here in Hell
And yet the world remains unchanged as far as I can tell

Thirty-eight years ago today, my young bride and I stood before a preacher in a friends living room in Mission Hills, CA, and exchanged vows. Since then, we’ve had three children and three grand-children, and a great life together. She passed away five years ago. I’m reminded of a little ditty I wrote for her:




